Tuesday, February 3, 2009

4 years later

4 years ago today
Daniel was called on his way
Home to be with Heavenly Father and Mother
I miss my wonderful brother.

4 years ago today
I was in utter sadness and dismay
I didn't want to say goodbye
I wanted him to be here...by my side.

4 years ago today
I was really NOT doing okay
I was angry and bitter
And refused to see that things would ever get better.

4 years ago today
I wanted to just be sad everyday
So not to feel us growing apart
But somewhere along the line I had a change of heart.

Here I am 4 years later
And my heart couldn't feel greater
So full of gratitude and love
For my Heavenly Father above

Here I am 4 years later
Knowing I was blessed with the best brother ever
Except, of course, for Matt
Who is such a cool cat!

Here I am 4 years later
And I KNOW that my family is forever
From attending the temple and hours kneeling in prayer
I can finally say, 4 years later, today I feel quite fair.

7 comments:

MLMBlogs said...

That was really sweet babe.

CNHGustad said...

That was so good. I didn't know you could write!! I hope your day ended up being ok. I know how you feel. Love ya!!

Amy S. said...

That was very, very sweet.

Megan said...

That's beautiful. I didn't realize you had lost your brother, so I'm sorry for that. I'm sure it must still be very hard. But I'm glad for you that you're getting to the point where you're feeling more grateful than anything.

Angela said...

Thanks for sharing your spirit.

Shaun Nansel Whipple said...

I'm so sorry. That was beautiful.

Dmcguire25 said...

I remember that day still and the day you found out he was sick again! I remember how hard it was for you and how strong you were! It was such an inspiration how you went and helped your mom take care of him! How his spirit and humor even towards the end, you said made you laugh! It was such a horrible day when he went home but I am in total amazment at how far you have come and what a great sister you are! I can not believe it has been 4 years. I remember that the first thing you said when you came back to work was "Oh you popped out" because I was 7 months prego! Man you are such a pro of the obvious! I love you so much and you are a real role model on how to be a great daughter and sister, not so much inspirational speaker for prego ladies that feel fat, but there are many other possible jobs. I love you!